Annie, our big black 100 pound fur baby has not been doing well lately...arthritis, heart, and respiratory problems etc...She was 14 years old, we had her for thirteen of those years...Is no longer with us, she is in a better place, and doesn't hurt anymore...For the last few days she could only walk a few steps due to the pain in her hind quarters...she loved to camp !!! On her last day on earth I ask her if she wanted to go to camp?.. She pulled her hurting body up, walked out of the house, down the deck stairs, and to the Suburban...Every step hurt her..but she was happy to be going to camp!! I had to lie to her, to get her to the vets office, I hate myself for this...She wouldn't let us help her up because she was hurting so bad, if we tryed to she would snap at us. Don't know how to end this post, I am a man, but I weep for my baby...
I'm so sorry. Don't hate yourself for lying. You did what was best for her, and she knows that. I'm sure she would thank you for ending her pain. You'll always miss her, but the day will come when the happy memories take over from the sad ones. May that day come soon for you.
Nothing wrong with crying,, it hurts to lose a loved one,, no matter what kind. They become a big part of the family. We put our 9 yr old furry friend down 2 months ago, I cried, not a bit ashamed,,,We feel your pain, but remembering the good,happy times helps...Your friend will be with our friend,waiting at the bridge,,
I'm sure your big puppy knew deep down that you were sad, but I'm equally sure she knew you were showing her all the love you had for her one last time by doing the right thing.
None of my loving canine friends died gracefully of old age unfortunately. And it was hard to take that last journey with them to the vet...but I held each one in my arms and cradled their heads one last time...giving them the dignity and love that they deserved.
I'm considered a "hardened cop" with 30 years under my belt...but I too blubber like a baby when it comes time to say farewell. Never say goodbye...it just a "farewell till I see you again"!
I firmly believe that you'll see Annie again. And each one of my dogs will someday greet me in a big green grass field on a warm spring day with a sloppy kiss and a warm, fuzzy hug.
And I'll have a basket of tennis balls to throw!
God bless and keep her in your memory!
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Thank you to all my friends here...Sooper I am crying in the dark reading your post, but it made me feel much better...I too held my gurrls head while it was done..I looked into her eyes...words can't say more....luv ya my friend, vern