Some times I feel very guilty about Bella....its a 9 hr drive to the hospital, I think about about all the what " ifs "...the PEG comes out..or.....she developes an infection and needs it replaced..or one of the other dogs pulls it out...on and on and on my mind goes during the night....I somehow suspect, if I am being totally honest, if she could have the surgery done at her DVMs which is an hour and 15 minutes away, I probably would have had it done already.....and when I do actually allow myself to realize this, I feel like a pretty crummy momma....